Dont hang yourself Kid...Makes no sense.

Ive always wondered why people try to kill themselves.
I've personally said the only time i would consider was if i were sold into prostitution, a 40 year old homeless crack friend, or dying of that incurable rampant sexual illness.

but personally as horrible as it may sound, I have no sympathy for teens who try to kill themselves. Especially because other spermless snot nosed little kids are teasing them
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Kids beat me up all the time in Jr. High. I've been called ugly, anorexic, flat chested, had my head bashed on desk, teeth knocked out, I've had people turn on me because picking on me was cool, glasses knocked off my face, kicked in the stomach in the snow, even guys took a swing at me, all of this before i hit 13. Did my mom take me out of the school? No... you know what she did she kept my ass in there for 3 years, 3 years when kids didn't like me because i was different, beat me up because i didn't act like them or like the same things they did and because i used big words but I had to stay there. There is where i learned, people may hit you and try to take you down with their words and belittle you because they don't understand you...so the fuck what. Never stop being yourself...Because when i graduated Jr high, kids still thought i was weird as fuck...But i was ready to go into high school knowing i was weird as fuck and no stupid kid could tease me out of acting otherwise.

Did i try to kill myself at least once...no. Did i become manically depressed, well yea what can you do because that and puberty will fuck a kid up. Which lead into my pseudo musical theater vocal geek emo rocker phase in high school. But while kids were acting tormented because of hormones and because it was a way to separate themselves and make them 'unique', people failed to understand that i was tormented because...well fuck i had been tormented, i don't even think i ever told my best friend what had happened because i was too depressed to talk about it, and she just thought i was being crazy. Children are evil, ghetto children are the spawns of satan. But regardless I didn't go around cutting myself in bathtubs and shit because through being bullied at a young age i gained a single secular understanding...

I may not be the most appealing right now but I'm a better person, smarter, and 12 year old girls aren't supposed to have DD's its not natural.

Kids still teased me in High School...and even though they tried to whisper..thats one thing teenage girls are horrible at. And it would suck sometimes...but i reveled in the fact i was different, because after you get your tooth knocked out by some prepubescent teenage boy and beat up by numerous pre adolescent girls... No one can really hurt you with words. The first and only girl who tried to beat me up in high school was pleasantly surprised when i was more than willing to knock her ass out if she even tried that shit... Last time i heard of such silly talk.

as oprah says in the color purple "all my life i had to fight"
and if i had to slap some bitch with a white glove to defend my honor well then. ::slap slap::

But i remembered the last day of High School one of my favorite teachers said something to me.
"At a very young age you've managed to do something most people your age haven't done yet, you've learned who you are and you refuse to change for anyone...keep that up kid, and you'll go far in life." - Mr. Kearney.

So i understand how it is to feel as if no one likes you and the word is against you, and theres this burdening dark hole that you feel you'd never get out of. And while most people 12-17 feel that way i have the stories and the assault photos submitted to the NYPD to prove it. Kids look at this point as the be all and end all of existence. From someone whose been through it and came out slightly unstable but non suicidal i don't see the point to wanting to kill yourself because a group of people don't like you.

You know what i learned when that shit happened. Someones bigger than you? Stronger than you? the minute they try to disrespect you stand tall and start cursing niggas out. Learn how to take pain so just in case you get hit you won't be afraid to strike back, don't kill yourself dammit.  Its retarded. I haven't had to physically fight in like 11 years because instead of boohooing in a dark corner of my room listening to 'The Used' I've learned how to use my mouth and now people don't even want to have verbal arguments with me...So i am at peace.

And once i graduated high school with a sense of self i also exited my awkward phase that summer so shit gets better. So now i have a new secular belief

I may be pretty appealing, but it doesn't matter because I'm smart, life has made me a better AWESOME person, and 12 year olds still shouldn't have double DD's... still not natural.

Kiss and Control.

Metaphorically this is the way all relationships begin... Honestly

You never know which one your gonna get... but you know only one is the winner.

This is only metaphorically speaking...

but eventually you wise up and get rid of the whore and the gold digger and are left with you're three final options.

#1. The clinger... Cute cuddly easily teary eyed annoying as hell... you don't know whether to hug them or smack them...but initially you do one better...get rid of them, next.

#2. Everyone loves a crazy bitch...until she keys your car and throws your pet bunny in a pot of boiling water right? just imagine what she can do to humans... you wouldn't want to piss her off so its best you don't get involved... Next.

Shes sweet, but she has an ugly bad side if you piss her off...but shes cute when shes throwing shoes at your face... This seems like the one who can be your closest friend and strongest ally ... she seems like the one so you do what any good poke master would do.

Choose...duh. Choose/v./\ˈchüz\: To select freely and after consideration.

This means if you chose to be in a relationship with this girl...over the crazy, whore, one and the one who wanted all of your money then why... do you go crazy. once your in a relationship, though you found this individual the most special one to be with out of all the rest...

Shit i don't understand

1. Facebook Passwords: why must you exchange this? the first pillar of any good relationship is trust... A person doesn't have to give up privacy until you put a ring on that persons finger... If you are so paranoid that they are fucking around on you...why the hell are you with them in the first place.

2. Restrictions on who you can/cannot hang out with: if you have a problem with them...fine if i have a problem with them...fine... but if either of us were friends with these people before our significant other became apart of the equation...who are they to tell you that you cannot hang out with your own friends... you are not the parent of your significant other...and even parent don't do that shit. If you dont like a person...you stay away from them, don't try to impose your view on someone else... go somewhere with that shit.

3. Restrictions on where you can/cannot go: because there are boys/girls there? so. if this is the person you CHOOSE to be with that means you both should have a mutual respect and understanding that there shall be no funny business going on at these clubs/social gatherings... unless once again your insecure about your relationship.

4. Having another individual running your life because of love.

Go to 1:11 to see what happened to the last woman who did that

And...eventually she even said... whats love got to do with it.

(this is me face palming myself...)

because the shit i dont understand...is you people allow yourself to get so caught up in these relationships...that you go fucking stupid. you lose your sense of self your sense of independence...you cant go anywhere without your boyfriend, you don't want your girlfriend to go anywhere without you because your afraid she's gonna cheat. It would be better of you didn't want her to go any where for some sensible reason like you were afraid she would get abducted by the yazuka, or African ninjas or some shit

There's this old saying.

"you give someone an inch they will take a mile."

a big mile

and half of you are miserable in relationships because you think its okay to take mile long advantages over another persons life just cuz to an extent you thing you own them and vice versa.

you think its okay to accept lies from them because ...because...your fucking dumb

you think its okay to abandon your friends for these people, because you love them so much when truth is...if you two ever realized how fucked up your relationship is, and decide to break up...who are you going to cry to?

and there are more than one of you out there...so many of you do this shit... and so many of you are completely aware of how stupid your being...but some of you can snap out of it. Good.

I dont know a lot about love but in my world...with Pokeballs and shit. Love is about compromise not control. The day you feel as if your sacrificing inches of your freedom in exchange for not another persons happiness...but simply their comfort is the day that your relationship is.>>

yup... I went there.

So please for the love of god... of your in a relationship. Do me a favor, learn to love care cherish and appreciate each other.... and try your absolute best not to make each others lives fucking miserable... cuz that my friends...makes no fucking sense...at all.